Close my eyes
I won’t be in heaven when I wake up
The weeks keep passing by
So does my will to be alive
Set me free
Impale my broken body
Pin my wounded wrists to this crucifix
I’ve emptied my veins
Replace the blood with oxygen and let it rush to my brain
Well I added another day to the scoreboard of this miserable existence
And tonight I’ll add another notch to this bed of futile resistance
I’m so sick of depending on another
Just to make it through the weeks
I spend so much time in this fucking bed
But I can barely find some sleep
I spend so much time in this fucking bed
But I can barely
Find some sleep
I’m a hollow excuse for breath and bones
Drag my fucking body
I’m a hollow excuse
With this knife I will refuse
To drag my body
Over this bed of nails we call existence
I hate this place
I’m sick of it
I fucking quit
This room will be my fucking tomb
This room will replace the air in my lungs with vacuum
I’ve been suicidal since I knew what suicide was
Torture in my head, what the fuck am I alive for
I fucking quit
I fucking quit